::Useless Memories::

big changes happen to little people

2005-07-11T10:08:48Z

well.. i havent updated my lj for probably a year or so... maybe a little less im not sure... and im not going to check,...and i dont really care to be quite honest.. but im updating now and thats all that matters.
well hmm summer has been good to me so far.. rightnow i'm trying to make the very best of it, and im trying to do all that i can within the next few weeks... too be quite honest inside im real broken... i will be moving to MURRIETA within th next few weeks... i dont want to , and for that i am trying to keep myself as occupied as possible.. i know ill still visit over here often.. but god.. it just sucks knowing that you cant just ride a bike or a skateboard to your friends(s) house(s)... and the fact tha their not going to be arround a lot.. it hurts... really.. yes i know i play it off as if moving isnt a big deal to me.. but as soon as i walk into my room shut my door.. all i seem to think about is past time memories and experiences... and how much i am going to miss montebello...but i just have to suck it up and go with it.. i hate crying like this.. dude i cry for everything... that needs to change... grr,, i cant write anymore... this is the second time i wrote this.. i give up.
to those of you who have shared even the briefest conversations with me, please know i am greatful to have done so..

forever and a day

2004-06-21T18:21:59Z

yikes! i havent updated this thingy in forever!!!! ginkys!! haha well rightnow im just here with my sis , we're being kool kids. shes making me this crazy paint thing. wahooo i got my green glasses that i wanted, yay!! their dopesauce.things are going good , of course theres exceptions, but overall i think things are really commin along good. yay tennis!!

today

2004-03-17T04:11:16Z

well today was pretty darn great, afterschool stodd after with marki, jasmine, and her hott sis jennifer {wow} haha j/k well yea stood after sk8ed, was being a kool kid, then went to marki's house, got her car, drove to DOUBLZ {place to be afterschool}, ate, met up with pearla, and opps, i forgot her name, and kaci. we all stuffed our faces , laughed, watched TV, then me marki,and kaci drove to kaci's girlfriends house. chilled there for a bit, and marki drove me home. yupp yupp that was my day. oh and in 4th period we watched "the Sanlot"{best movie ever. that was it. yup

in other news, things lately are really bothering me, i dont know why, or whats wrong with me. ive been kinda snapping at people and being mean :( i dont like that.
well my grandmas in the hospital, she has a blood clott in her leg, i looked up on the internet about it , and its when blood is enabled to be trans fered to the leg from the heart, and it can kill. :-S this really sucks.

bordem...

2004-03-08T03:29:18Z

dream interpretation
KISS:

In this dream you may be expressing feelings that are difficult to express during the day. Kissing is usually an indication of warmth, affection, and happiness. If you don't receive enough love and affection in your daily life, then this could be a compensatory dream, where the dreamer is comforting himself. If you are kissing the object of your affection, the dream could be a form of wish fulfillment. Superstition based interpretations say that if you are kissing strangers, you may have a need to conquer. If the kissing is insincere, you are pretentious while if you see your partner kissing someone else, you may be afraid of infidelity.

yea i was looking at this dream dictionary thing rightnow.. thought id put that up.

lostwithout @ 2004-03-07T14:05:00

2004-03-07T22:11:27Z

Who is in your celebrity family? by cerulean_dreams
User Name
Mom	Cher
Dad	Jim Carrey
Brother	Ashton Kutcher
Sister	Christina Aguilera
Dog	Rin tin tin
Boyfriend	Orlando Bloom
Best friend	Milla Jovovich

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What will your last words be? by cum_on_bitch
Your LJ username
Your real name
Your sex
Your age
Your last words will be...	"i hate you so much..."

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Your Suicide.. by Konstantine
Your Name/Username
Favorite Number?
Favorite Color?
Gender?
How will you commit suicide?	You will drown yourself
How many tries will it take?	49
When will you commit suicide?	May 14, 2032
What will your suicide note say?	"Mother, Father .. where did we go wrong?"

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Your Sexual Profile (you sexual deviant you...) by sparkledee
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Your Secret Kink Thing	Hiding things.(Look!No hands)
Your Sexual Strength	You recharge instantly..
Your Sexual Weakness	You are afraid of lesbians.
Your Likely STD	You're clean! Hurray for you!
How Many Partners in Crime?	2

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today..Manda Panda pants , and..... my feelings on other things

2004-03-07T08:34:13Z

the time on this things if all messed up rightnow its 12:31 {AM} not PM stupid Lj thingy

yea... today i talked to amanda wahoo!!! haha she makes me feel so special, i like talking to her she indeed brightens up my day too!! :) this is what she wrote about me in her Xanga thingy :
MARKIE... Shes awesome.. one of my coolest intermidiate friends that even if we havn't talked for months, or years, we still go back to where we left off... shes interesting...Theres someting about her thats just like... WHOA... i use to have a crush on that cute dork...but yea... i talked to her today after a few months.. Of couse.. She IMed me 1st.. oOOo now she straightens out her hair.. but anyways.. (It looks great) she always brightens up my day.. hrmm.. her and I should hang out sometime... Her.. and... ______? bleh... im sorry but I have this negative feeling for ______... I can't wait to talk o Markie and tell her whats been happening sincetoday i was'nt really open.. i was dazed out... yea.... I MISS MARKIE...

see yes, yes talked to her on the phone all late haha she was hiding in the bathroom for a while there, lol shes kool yes yes i was laughing she was laughing {excessively}.{END}

{other news,and feelings} im scared... im losing someone i care very deeply for .and i hate it! and i hate the people. god!and im the one to blame.or so they think. whatever, im sick of it, all of it do what u want, yea he doesnt think we'll last u dont either if he doesnt, so yea, just know im not the one who "DRIFTED".... YOU were. </3

dang!!! someone help!!

2004-03-02T01:03:47Z

how come my comments aren't being sent to my email!!!!??? can someone help me please....!!! ahhh!!

lala starbucks!!

2004-03-01T06:57:56Z

Red mans hott!! :( i want that sweater...

well today i went to Danielles house, she ironned my hair we listened and sang our hearts out to "Taking Back Sunday" went to the mall with with her, haha got her picks, went walking arround,STARBUCKS {whoot whoot!} went to the arcade lol, i beat her in air hockey muhahaha!!cuz im the best lol we played that "Dance Dance Revolution" game and we sucked buttocks. went to "Spencers" and looked like perves looking at all the nasty stuff there lol, goodtimes goodtimes...lol, cucumber anyone? then walked arround more, decided to go back to her house, got on the bus saw peeps i knew {seeing as how im so popular :)}lol then got a call saying jackie and dennis were going to pick me and danielle up at savons so me and danielle were waiting there singing out loud to "taking back sunday"-Bike scene. then they picked us up,went to her house jackie was being mean and not huggin me because i was with her sis{boo for you.. u know i wuv you}. ate a steak quesadilla that grace made{mm..}.then went in the back room where jackie was talking to israel,haha israel's funny, good times goodtimes mister. HAHA i kissed you lelen!!and what! p.s get off the pills dan!!

okay okay....

2004-02-21T06:23:34Z

haha well. today was pretty dopenessness. well haha i was starving in the morning from the tiring night of hiphop practice yesterday. so i went to 7-11 and got a huge hotdog pasked with all kinds of ketchup,mustard,maonaise,jalepnoes{dont know how to spell the last two} .and a bag of hot cheetoes.haha then when i got to school i didnt go to first period, me and my lil churro air {erica} went to Mc Donalds i had a egg Mc' muffin, hash brown,a water, and after a coffee.walked back to school, was late to 2nd period showed up and saw that i had a new partner that sits next to me , frank, he likes me and what a coensidence he sits next to me now. haha it was funny, he was on shrooms h was all eating them next to me, and seeing dinosaurs from the picture on the wall. funny times funny times... then P.e , walked the period talked to jackie malissa ,and CHRISTINA {WOW!} then off to 4th period had a sub, i didnt do my work it was pointless it was so damn easy and stupid so i decided to just draw Dr. suess characters all over the sheet {awesome drawings may i add} but then at the end she took my paper away {shakes fist} so i was mad and after 5th i went back and demanded that she gave it back , id worked i got it back i was happy and i continued drawing in 6th period.. so really i did nothing in my classes but draw, and stare at walls.i just got back from Alcopulcos with my family, and now im here waiting for my dad, im leaving in 1 in the morning to ontario but no worries people i shall arrive home on time for morning. :)

i can bust like he busted.

2004-02-18T06:04:25Z

ohhh!! you got served boooyyyiii!!! p.s i like what hes wearing

hmm...

2004-02-18T05:48:34Z

hmmm... today wasnt really eventful,but it was an easy day. got a B on the first test of the semester in geometry,yay for me!! im happy for that, haha p.e well what can i really say about that i mean we are undefeated and IM the team,yea the teacher said im not going to be able to play tomorrow cause i do to much and play to good,man!!that sucks!:( ,yea then 6th period, the lady Grace F. Napolitano {congress women who represents the u.s} came to talk to us there, that was pretty neat. the things she was saying really opened up my mind and changed how i looked at voting and making a difference in not just our city but our state.i enjoyed that.thank you. and Ms.Green i really love that women,shes a great person i see it and shes here to help us with our education,she really cares for her students,all of us as individuals. i like how she said we all have something special about us,each and everyone of us.shes in a way my motivation at the end of school,and im going to try to carry out her word throught the rest of the day. id like to say thank you miss Green very much,and your very repected when it comes to me :) . then afterschool i was supposed to go to eat at Johns with marki,but i was late so i just hungout with carlos,then saw jason,and yea then i was on my way home.everyone im going to make a difference!.but like Ms. Green said ,"talk is cheap".im not promising,but ill try.til next time toodles.

today

2004-02-17T05:51:07Z

ok well today was a koolnessness day,i enjoyed it.ok,well i woke up got on the computer talked a bit got off. called people{jacky,jackie,bernie}.Jacky{hiphop jacky}told me to go over to house and we would chill and practice at her house,i said ok.then Bernie calls and says " can u go out?get ready,we're going to go to Walmart" so i get ready {5minutes}she picks me up,we go.then go to her house chill.man that girl can never go without knowing something {movies} lol little mermaid,Aladin. we ate Tacos,beans,rice,and caprisons.{her "madre"made food :)}it was mmm mmm good.then went online ,she was on a mission.lol COMPULSIVE LIAR, LIAR i tell you!!lol j.k. haha lights on lights off,make up your mind women!! geez.. haha "what are you a MASUGA!?"haha there ya go, oh haha spelling issues "woop hooii".yes yes all in all good times.. haha those sespenders were cool,i want some :) .umm keith sweat and B's lil' impersonations with the "channel clicker" to the song.wonderful. then it was time for markie to go byebye,they took me home,and now we're trying to figure out how im going to give the 15$ she left in MY pocket back..gee golly doughnuts.

geaa...

2004-02-16T09:04:13Z

thats me :)

wahoo!!!

2004-02-16T06:39:21Z

ok, well happy late valentines day everyone!!well i had a pretty filled weekend so far, im lovin it :) , haha ok , well so on friday afterschoool i went to the mall with jackie and then back to her casa, then mister isreal dropped me off at home ,and i talked on the phone till who knows. saturday i talked on the phone on and off and did some {alot} of cleaning, then talked some more on the phone and haha met some new people {HERBERT and DAniel} wahoo, man we were supposed to go out to somewhere, bernie wanted to go to universal city walk, but Herbert said it was too far, then we got off with him and called daniel{my match} lol B u know what im talking about :) haha, wahoo, power rangers!! lol, yea i met daniel and herbert on three way with bernie on the phone, wahoo! they said im kool! :) haha , then bernie invited me to go to her house {8:30 when this occurs} then i get ready seeing as how i was in my pj's the whole day {all of us were, wahoo startin a club} then i go to her house, man she took forever to get ready haha, then we chilled, her brother is awesome!! haha , then we watched THE LION KING 1 1/2, yea it was "frustrating" ;) lol ,then Bernie had her ICE CREAM uht ohh.... lol i was indeed horrible :) sowwy ;), couldnt help it. yes yes then i arrived home at about 12,came online and went mimis. then TODAY i went to my sis's banquet at shakeys :) haha wahoo, me and JACKY {hiphop jacky} we got 185 tickets.lol man shes so fun.lol we were having more fun then the kids playing the games, then after shakeys jacky wanted me to go back to hiphop practice later that day,and then we'd go to the movies,wahoo i was so there! k, me and jacky went to her grandmas house for some party, hah we were playing on the comp and playing Nintendo64 and having a blast, then we left and went to her house, everyone arrived , danced {alot} then danced some more, tried out a few poses, and david started to teach me how to break dance seeing as how "im strong". then we got ready and was off to the movies to see "you got served" , we went to taco bell to get our grub on, lol, and were on our way into the theatre haha man that movie was awesome! after the movie i was all posing outside the threatre {not lieing , i was litterally on the floor posing} and was doing the moves we learned previously today. lol everyone was tripping out as i made an ass of myself, but ehh ill never see them again, so who cares. then went to jack in the box and came home, now im here, wahoo. dont know what im going to do tomorrow, anyone have any invites, im down for anything. til then byebye

haha KISS ME!!!

2004-02-14T06:09:03Z

Your Candy Heart Is "Kiss Me"

You're a romantic at heart - which is quite sweet

You fall quickly and often for many people you meet.

While you're romantic, you've been know to crawl up with a dirty book

Warning to all: You're not as innocent as you may look.

What Naughty Candy Heart Are You?

More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva

hmm..

2004-02-07T01:21:45Z

Hoy en tu mirada hay no se que
Algo especial
Ni siquiera el beso tan da amor
Fue natural
Fue un presentimiento o quiza
Lei tu mente
Por favor
Si es asi como sientes

Miente di me que me amas
Jura me que nunca
Piensas alejarte de ni
Miente venda me los ojos
Graba te muy dentro
Que si tu me dejas
No podre vivir sin ti

Deja me pedirte tu perdon
Si te ofendi
Pero no me pidas
Renunciar
A ser feliz
Dejame intentarlo
Yo hare lo que tu quieras
Y despues
Si es que no me quisieras
haha ohh.. watchout i know spanish!! haha, well im just here getting ready for the homecomming game at MHS, haha Danilles on court whoot whoot!! yaya!! well im going to skidaddle now... later days :)

don don....don....

2004-02-03T06:01:07Z

hmm.. another day at school... wait, not just anyday.. a fresh day. wahoo the semester is over now i have to try and get my act together.. man i need someone to keep me on check with my ish... any volunteers??{don't all raise your hands at once}..:) which super hero do u prefer?

im all for Captain AMERICA hes hott!! man.. break me off a piece of that.. lmao. j/k really though hes a hott animated hero... who agrees?

lostwithout @ 2004-02-01T16:46:00

2004-02-02T00:58:56Z

ok well lastnite, i updated and this stupid computer of mine deleted what i wrote, man, it was alot too so ill try and remember everything that wrote.well ok... My uncle has been here for about 5 days now, haha we've been bumming it mostly til about yesterday nite at 6:45 we went for a walk haha we went to big lots! that was fun, we were messing arround in there for a while then we were going to go to target to buy his grease and we we stopped at this liquor store to see if they had some and wahoo!! they did, yay! and we were by bernies house, i wanted to stop by and say hi, so we went and they insisted that we went inside so we did, haha i woke her up!!HAHA!j/k, sorry!! haha man her parents are like so awesome!! her brother too!!haha then fernie knocks on the bathroom door and says is time to go, so she finishes up her hair dew she was going to show me for tomorrow {today} your hair looked totally awesome by the way!!it was cuteness oure cuteness.. yes yes, i know i wasnt flirtatious i was trying not to be , i cant member??but hah i wasnt shy :) i was hapopy for that, but i couldnt take advantage of that. boooo.. well we said our goodbyes gave the hug and was on our way home at arround 9:10 i think., then got home and yea, came home got online talked to bernie ... again... haha me and fernie were looking at some brain teaser illusion thingys man those were crazy... then i updated and it deleted so i shut the comp off arround 12:30 and went to bed mad.. then woke up mad.. booo now we're having a superbolw party , family is over.. we;re being kool kids...:)

im going to name a star after you, ive been pondering upon it for a while and now i am. :)

school school school....

2004-01-23T16:41:26Z

yupp yupp, well rightnow im in school u know being a cool kid and all, i really need to study for finals, yupp, well yea i got a new number for my room and all, pretty crazy. and i havent really been doin much lately , just chillen and doing my work. yesterday i went to my cheer girls lil competeition at garvey school or something like that, met some new people :) crazy girls!! yea but it was fun, i was going to go up ther and spot madori on stage but didnt because i didnt want to injure her incase she did fal and what not{cast} haha, im glad i getit on on wednesday, it would have been on sunday but yeah that doctor called rescheduled, soo boo for him...!!!{ shakes fist}.. yupp yupp it happens..., well today im going to go see san gabriel play{bball} or those of you who are reading this i would have probably already went. yup yup.. well till next time this is markie signing off, toodles noodles scadoodles...

today..

2004-01-18T04:26:56Z

today i went to the glendale galleria thingy "by myself", it was pretty crazy. i walked arround with my book looking all smart and ish. walked trough this place with all kinds of shops, walked into all of them ,even the furniture stores, one was this sk8shop thingy and they had all kinds of dope shoes and shirts and this awesome green VOLCOM beanie, i want it!! i was going to buy it but i didnt want to waste my 20 bucks. then walked out, went to this place called "cold stone" its awesome there they like have all these types of candy and ice cream and they ask u what type of ice cream u want and what candy u want and they mash it all up , its kool, i got a chocolat shake with ores though, i wanted to try their ice creams, but i didnt want to be all fat kid status.i pulled up a chair and sat and read for about an hour, then walked arround somemore, then went to yoshinoia and read some more and waited for about an hour then my mom came and yupp. then on the way home me and her had a really interesting long conversation it was a good bond.
over all today wasnt that bad being with myself, i liked it, it was relaxing i had time to enjoy everything i saw and the people. it was really neat.

today :/ :)

2004-01-17T06:52:30Z

well today as anyother school day it was boring, samething everyday.i dont know whats wrong with me sometimes...alot on my mind maybe but ehh.. it happens.. hmm kkk afterschool is where my day kicked off, k walked with micheal and steven to the sk8 shop {sick mission} got there, noodles,and some dude ozzy was there, wel chilled shared a lot of laughs , man it was hilarious, then me and steven went to go eat at Tom's burgers haha he beat me at TEKEN , damn him!! {shakes fist} ,then the guy at toms messed up my order."she asked for a chili cheese burger not chili cheese fries.." said steven. then went back to the shop and ate, laughed a whole lot more. crap happend.then went home arround 6:30, got home chilled a bit

got a call from the awesome Baby :) haha talked from 7:30 or so to about 9 i think.man that really brightened up my night , haha wahoo "your horrible" yes yes i am :) and u like it!! :P ,today wasnt like our regular conversations huh? it was cool.thanks.u made me happy, gracias :) see i know spanish HA!i hope u have an awesome time tomorrow, not to much fun huh? j/k ish, go balls out!!we have to watch "DA MOVIE",u know, the one u watched with ryan before me, yea u know what im talking about bully :( haha... and ill buy you some ice cream and ill bring some ICE ;) {shh..} well toodles noodles scadoodles...

this sucks so bad man... im mad {sad}

2004-01-16T02:02:55Z

well i just called your house, your dad answered said u werent there :( ive been calling everyday since sunday and i get no answer or your not home... i have talked to u since sunday morning. i think about u alot and ive been having these weird {not sexual} dreams and your in them. i miss you "baby" for reals. i know your got your ish to take care of in school and in sprots but i miss you!!it sucks no seeing u or not talking to you. ive tried to stop thinking about u, but everytime i go to 5th period i see that person who i told u reminded me of you and then i think "hmmm... i wonder what baby's doin rightnow.."and then i get all sad.its like the harder i try not to think about u , the more i do. Even before 5th period i think about u, specially p.e, haha rightnow we're playing volleyball, haha im all pro with one arm {cast}.... well yea i just wanted to tell u that because i know i probably wont see u or talk to u in a while.... comment please aye.. i sound all stalker..its not like that.

uht ohh...look at the picture... SUNSHINE go byebye

today

2004-01-15T04:47:07Z

well today was another typical day at school, it was more of a kickback day i didnt really work hard in any of my classes, well let me rephrase that: i Didnt have to work hard in any of my classes: lunch time samething "buying food" haha, going to the noodle room is pretty kool, u know walking by the old kick it spot " The wall" *tear*. its kool walking around and seeing different people in the halls and stuff, i mean noone new seeing as how i know everyone but still :) . after school went to jackie casa, danielle made some "uncooked" ;) ravioli thingys. they were good though haha jackie made a sick GORMAY meal and didnt eat it!! dang u food waster!!!{shakes fist} then went in the room watched danielle make colages of orlando bloom and johnny depp change her settings on the computer {my idea wahoo!} while jackie was asleep!!butholle, haha i woke u up!!haha wahoo puppy noises!!your feet smell!! haha its ok il still massage and smell them {yea right...}ehhh...yesum then danielle started playin the guitar and singing {good times good times} then HONK HONK went my mommy in the front. then went to home depot. and now here in my jurassic park boxers :)

lostwithout @ 2004-01-13T17:58:00

2004-01-14T01:58:57Z

ahhh!!! bored!

lostwithout @ 2004-01-10T20:37:00

2004-01-11T04:38:45Z

Thank you johnathon!!!